Dear Diary,
Have you ever been dumped? I don't know if I have been dumped anymore or any less than anyone else but it all sucks.
Rejection hurts.
You're rolling along thinking things are good and WHAM!
"Something just doesn't feel right." HUH?
"I'm not sure this is going to work." HUH?
All of a sudden I am an idiot! What the hell are you talking about? This isn't going to work? Weren't we just talking and joking together? Didn't we just snuggle in bed for the last half hour? What's not working?
I guess I am unique. I can usually tell if I like someone within the first 10 dates.
What's with people taking two year, four years, etc. to decide that you are really not the one. I think we have an epidemic of commitmentphobes. People who are afraid that if they committ to you they may miss out on something even better. Fear, immaturity, the internet. We have so many more choices that it is overwhelming. Call me old fashioned, call me crazy. What happened to love and committment? Do you know how many men I have dated that "loved" me thought I was wonderful, blah, blah, blah but something just didn't feel right. Could it be the QT burrito you ate for lunch?
Hell, I do not want to be with someone who doesn't love me or doesn't feel right about me whatever that means. Maybe I am just too practical for dating. I love you, I'm attracted to you, I enjoy spending time with you, You have no addictions to anything stronger than Dr. Pepper, you have all of your teeth and a job. Gentlemen we have a match!!! There will always be someone "better". I would look better if you hadn't been with me for the last two years.
My goal for today is just to try and not vomit everytime I think of my ex in bed with someone else.
3 comments:
I have been the dumper more than the dumped because I can be on/off with feelings, does that make me more guy-like? If I've been dumped, I spend some time agonizing that the rug's been pulled out from under me then I face it with, "this is my new reality" and move on. I have to repeat that many times to myself to make me believe it, but it works. Then I toss them on my mental pyre and clear away the ashes. As much experience as I've gained regarding buddhist circular thinking, I still prefer a linear landscape with the past behind me and the future ahead of me. It helps me move forward. I believe that whichever direction you decide to move in isn't as important as keeping moving. You are a woman on the move! Call me if you get stalled, stuck, or frozen. I think this blog is a great idea.
I've been dumped. I wouldn't say I've been dumped a lot and I've done my fair share of the dumping. But there was this one time I was dumped and just could not get over it.
Aren't you supposed to get over it?
So I don't know how much comfort I have for you. It's hard to get over a break-up. Sooooo hard! There's no secret magical formula except doing what you're doing and getting your feelings out there. Maybe that's why I couldn't get over it that one time. I didn't talk about it then.
I am equally a dumper and dumpy (no, not short and fat), but being most recently dumped... I will be crying, laughing, screaming, cursing, praying to the heavens for peace and trying not to puke, right there with ya.
In my younger days, when I dated guys that I knew weren't marriage material anyway, it was easy to say "YAY! This gives me a chance to fall in love all over again. Maybe this one will be cuter. Or Sweeter. Or 'the One'." It's a little different being dumped by someone you are absolutely CRAZY about and want to spend the rest of your life with because you have spent your life searching for HIM. He is 'the one'. At least in your eyes. Unfortunately, he's decided that you (and I) are not 'the one' for him and all we can do is kick and scream and cry on each others shoulders until we have the strength to finally flip them the bird, tell them to go F*** themselves and find someone better.
Today, I am trying to be optimistic. :)
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